沉默.. ❤

我有多久没尝试过突然沉默，眼泪慢慢的夺眶而出...

一切的原因，我不知
伪在我心中的悲伤，多到自己也不清楚，模模糊糊似的


一切背后默默的压力，有多少人明解？

算了，好吗？
只有自己明白，能拯救自己..


看透了
开朗的我一瞬间迷茫了...

I wish i could live without you .. ♥

• When I close my eyes think of you ♥
• And the time we've had been through ♥
• Even though were for apart right now ♥
• I remember back when you were here with me ♥
• How you've make my world complete ♥ 
• But now I'm left alone ♥
• We talked about love and hope ♥
• Wishing we could start a life our own ♥
• I wish that I could live without you ♥
• Why did you tear my heart apart ♥
• You said you'll love me from the start ♥
• All those painful things you’ve put me through ♥ 
• But I'm still loving you ♥
• I’ve tried to give my best to you ♥

• I don’t deserve the things you do ♥
• Everything has gone to memories ♥
• I just wish I konw the truth behind the lies.. ♥

Please Be STRONG ♥

 i still loving you even i still loving you. but what should i do? what should i do? i so bother about you.. maybe you're right.. we not suit.. our world are diffirent .. Different.. Early in the first, i'm knew we are not suit even we loving each our deep and deep.. my life is normal.. i want a normal life.. your life i can't join it.. It not suit to me.. :'(

 PLEASE.. just endure all thing the.. it will be fine.. i will proof that i could live wihout you .. after a few year.. i will be a successful girl in the life.. i will let you know your way are wrong!! DIRECTLY WRONG !! :@ / :'(  you still childish.. not mature.. out to society work just mean you start your life in the hardship.. not mature!! 

It's okey.. i will endure endure and endure.. i won't reply any your message.. i will delete our memories even i can do it.. DELETE DELETE.. delete the memory that you're not care it.. i'm so tired.. i don't study either side care our relationship.. you so hard, i'm hard you.. Did you know?? i so stress in my examination too.. you got care about my mood?? did you??

I will be strong accept my cruel dicision

i will accept the ending

Destined goodbye, my dear

♥

  

Bird Day ♥

 30/5
my dearest twin cousin's birthday 
we celebrated their birthday at my aunt's club.. we singing singing , drinking drinking =='' i have been force to drinking a lot of beer , going drunk.. but i still enjoying my CHIONG K .. wakaka :D happy birthday ♥

 yesterday was labour day but it was my lazy day and family day ♥

I'm unlike go hang gai with my family =='' because they so trouble , make me so pakcek.. my brother feel it too..  At the 1st , we go eating our breakfast at 萧家辣汤 , Wapiang , i really can't tahan my mother, 6 people other 7 dishes .. when we stop she , she still scolding us '' never mind never mind '' the weather was so hot , still eating spicy pot and a lot of meal , finally , we can't finish it , although we already spam eat eat eat ..




after that, we planing went to jusco for buying blanket and watching a movie.. Unluckly , when we check at online already FULL =='' on the road , there was a lot of car wanted enter jusco .. my mother give up and going to Salak South visit my grandfather and my lovely aunt ♥
At there , we enjoying watermelon cincau ♥ nice :D next , we crazy playing with a stuff ( i don't know what it's call ) but i got post the picture at instragam and facebook .. We really in SIAO situation, we so happy , wakaka 

When I'm playing suddenly received his message , he date me for a movie tonight :D but I'm having a family dinner , so our date fail :(

but when he asking me , I'm feeling excited although i can't attended



after my aunt's house , we went to jusco .. I'm already bought my blanket last year so they looking for they blanket but FAILED  :D haha , JUSCO JUSCO , jusco got CHATIME , so we sure go there buying a chatime ♥ 


after that , we looking for television .. change dwelling place is not a easy thing == a lot of stuff need to buy.. When I'm looking , suddenly i  bit by a person , I don't know who is that , i thought it was my brother , i scoop , finally she is my friend ==  SIAO , hahaha ♥

after jusco we going to another aunt's house again , they date us having dinner together .. on the way , we crazy playing phone '' 打酱油 '' LoL but i pay attention with my iPhone haha 
 after a few minutes , we reached but there are not people in the house == minute by minute , all sleeping in the car , LOL so sweat .. around twenty minutes they reached , we take a rest at aunt's house and chiong K again , haha


After chiong K , we having our dinner at 鸿金 steamboat , there are full of people == sweat , everywhere also full of people , so pek cek :( my aunt siao too , she order more then my mummy , i think got 7 dishes + steamboat (4pax) too , walao , her son still small how can eat a lot @@'' I really give up for my family , all same pattern .. If not finish then BLA BLA BLA 




Finally , after having dinner we're back .. after prepare my school bag and brush my teeth , i think i can sleep on my comfortable bed ..Fxxxx , suddenly I vomited again , Qiu .. >-< after vomit , mestilah stomachache , Finally today i absent to school again








in the morning , i dreaming about you treat me so nicely :D when i dreaming suddenly my phone got a message , I hate it make my dream stop and i'm lazy to pick u the phone, but at the last i picked it up too .. LOL , the message sent by him , yesterday i didn't reply his message (HATE HE)  maybe he knew i'm angry so his sent a message in ENGLISH to me , feeling funny right? haha , A person who don't know enlish sent a english message to me , he typing so funny but i understand and i feeling so happy and happiness ♥

'' KISS YOU MANY MANY TOO ''

SO CUTE :D



sometime , i don't know want angry him or what , when he knew i'm angry he will doing something and make me forgive him =-=''

2/5

Happy Birdday 

my dearest friend ALBERT KIANG ♥

:D

Stress ♥

Recent, I'm feeling so stress..although i'm bathing my tears will drop and drop..Exam killing me badly..LIKE A HELL !! # Fxxx

My eyes swell and swell,I'm so bad,i didn't care my eyes,always made it painful

in the midnight, i always cry alone on my comfortable bed.When I'm crying just a stuff alway accompany me,my pillow ♥

just it wont leave me alone , it always let me hug it , kill it , scold it..and it won't angry

after tired cry, it will accompany sleeping until i'm recover..THANKS :D

A person whose study it's a good student , but it so stress for that person

how can a student got 10 A+? may i know it ?all chapter combine together!! SUCK !! as high as a hill !! think my brain is super large? how can a student remember all the thing? they need a happy childhood, not a evil life lar , adui ==''

Please lah, let's me go .. a hard thing is having a competition with time .. after one week .. exam is coming .. i can't escape it.. if i escape , time won't waiting at me , i knew it.. but i'm so stress , you know?

Yesterday a friends came and find me , we have a same problem..

please lar boy , don't alway just focus on your work , please care your girl ..i know a boy working is a good thing but don't ignore your girl too, they will feeling alone too ♥

when a girl alone , they will started EMO .. and think some that YES or NO .. like a shit

i will recall the memories how the boy hurt me before and HATE it ..!! #angry

okey , but i change my mind.. just let's him go .. he just working.. he so hard too..

i need learning understanding at him, he need my comfort too..♥

yesterday , he told me he need my understanding, he set a target so that he hardworking and reach that target.. he earn  just because he wanted bring me go everywhere with no worries about money :D

Okey, it's fine .. i just grievance .. i will focus at my result at my SPM..

when we successful, our life will be better ♥

I LOVE YOU

♥

just refuel at my mid-year examination

i know the result will like a shit ..==''

   

having my 1st overtime look ♥

(my friend asking me a fool question : did you cosmetic your nose ? Fxx i need my flat nose in high too and i didn't have any brave to do it =='')

Hope ♥

Don't good at a person because you will eventually find such a long time, that person will get used to, then everything you do as is well deserved.

 ♥

It meaningful .. i'm absolutely agree that !!!

Should i feel happy while he will message me or i just look it as usual ?

I don't know.. Should i reply his message ?

Did he really admit or other ?

When you message me what are you doing ? What are you thinking ?

Playing with your friends? Chating with your friends?

Did you pay attention when you message me ?

Did you alone look forward to receive my message?

I don't know.. :(

why you can't send a message that told me what are you thinking about?

don't just message me

'' you still angry with me? ''

'' don't angry at me anymore ok bu ok? ''

'' don't be upset anymore ''

'' sorry ''

i'm did't angry either upset..I'm just disappointed at you, I don't how to explain my mood anymore.. it's can't describe , it's already numbness.. my heart had dead !!

sometimes i will look forward to your hug .. just keep quite and give me a hug.. i need your hug..

If you're love me please take some action to me !!!

don't just standing at the same point

If you feel that you're not a bot that can obey to a girl, u just let's go.. i won't request you stay beside me forever and ever.. If you still beside me , I can feel that I will more toilful to face at you

A girl just need someone knew her , love dearly at her , protect her ..

So hard ? I did't feel it so hard ==''

But I'm sucessful !! ♥

I'm didn't cry at you (expect your grandma that event)

LOVE just a thing that will pass in your life

just a thing as a ANT.. it's not am important, you feeling sad because you're be accustomed at it.. time will bring away all the sad memories

I will treat it as usually , If you take some action that I'm impoertant in your life, i just accept it..

Luckily we're still not a couple.. If not i think i will in crazy situation now !!!

Look forward to my wonderful life ..   ♥

A heartfelt .. I'm really miss and love at you..♥

If i can choose a way , I want you stay beside me

Drinking a drink that made for you but you abandon it on Friday..

Hope we have a realation that will not end ♥

:D

   

Bless ♥

Oh No 

Actually what should i did ? I hope I can give u a warm hug

but can't

why you always don't want to share your grief with me 

i'm worry about you :(

when we are emo-ing

I more look forward to you telling me about the story 

don't just message me that 

SORRY , I LOVE U , KISS , MISS YOU 

I DON'T WANT THAT!!! I just want to accompany with you when u upset

Did you know when u are crying , how about my mood?

I'm crying too..At that moment , I'm badly in need of your coaxing, comfort

I don't want stay alone anymore

you abandon me and stay me alone too many many  

I will recall all the memories that you hurt me 

i will recall the memories that you betray me and find another girl

Did i hate that girl or you ? Whose false ? What the ...RAMDOM

EMO

I'm look forward to your hug, i need you 

Thanks your care,Thanks your LOVE

although you are bothing ,

you still give me a warm message that care about me

I LOVE YOU ♥

0983

hey .. ♥

recently, my mum such as a rich woman ==''

alway fly to other country and leave us alone

too BAD !! :(

yesterday she come back from Cambodia

we celebrate her lover's birthday at AH WET

♥

night,i quarrel with him

when i reach home i just shut down my phone and have a sweet dream 

i had change a lot on the concept

be more cheerful :D

when i woke up in the morning 

i start my phone ,i was surprised ♥

i thought he will sent a lot if rubbish message to me and spam scolding at me 

but the true is he admit he was wrong

and sent a lot of massage that he worry about me , haha (AnShuang)♥

i just my happy ending then enought, other i dun mind 

just stop quarrel and see forward

still got a lot wonderful stuff waiting us 

do not stop when facing some trouble , it's okey :D

thank you

 

my flat hair , finally i cut it 

i just cut my hair when i was unhappy 

when the scissors cuting my hair , my heart pain a moment

i stay my front hair at least half year T>T

and i'm not satisfied with my hair UGLY

should i rebonding my hair ? confused...